Start from the day, she wrote me a comment on friendster. And we began our chat. I got her msn from friendster, and got her number from msn. Lol , and i used to text her or call her to chat. =)

i told her everythings. and she'll cheer me up. made people misund that i liked her? HAHA.

A day after starwalk, we went parade together. i was moodying that day cause the girl i like sitting with a boy alone at starbuck. But she, accompany me for whole day. =) after we back home, lilian text me and tell me that zhiying LIKED me. owh, what a crush. i can't give up the girl i like that time. and i've missed her. and we continue-ing our friendship relation. long long long ago, i'm slowly gave up the girl i like, also the reason for me started to smoke. awhile ago, i've started to fall on HER. But from the day on, she told us she will love back her own boyfriend and NOT me.

when she like me, i don't

when i do, she don't

maybe this is our fate? i don't know.

i never tell her that my feelings. just remain the our friendship.

until a day , a record between me and my bro - Jingyi had spreaded out.

it's about the conversation that i telling jingyi that who i liked. Omg , how FISH.
everyone knew the secret. some believes, some don't.

i don't care.

from that day on, we started to flirting each other. i don't know whether she like me not, but she still had a BOYFRIEND.

PMR finally ended. i had forgotten which day that she break up with her boyfriend. i still never do any action because, i scared that she will reject me. i've been ordered to work at dou mou gong for a week since 9 wong yeh.

dou mou gong - a place which changed my lifes. at the date 10/25 i holded her hand tightly, and she never reject. Yeah , we had coupled. =D

i never msg her. but she would msg me everytime every moment even every seconds. isn't im bad huh? x) we also argued bout this, and i promised her that i will text her oftenly. but i din't even achieve the promise. i bet she'll have a lil bit disapointed on me?

somedays , she had noticed that im a smoker. she never say anythings , but tell me not to smoke. i answered OK. Second time , she knew again. and she texted me and hope me not to smoke again. i promised again. but , there's still THIRD, FOURTH , FIFTH & SIXTH times, i don't know how many times i've promised to her. i never achieve even just ONE promise. this time, she knew i smoke again. she's very very angry and wanted to break with me. Only i realize how important is she to me. i think back alot of our past. i treat her not really good, but she never said anything and continue walk the road with me. i don't like to talk, having bad attitude and small gases. we always argue, but she'll forgive me everytime. maybe she's quite suffer? =( im really regret, but everythings was too late. she act like forgave me. but i knew..i knew i had lost the trusting of myself to her. Can i get it back?.. It's 12a.m. at the night. and im missing you deeply. are u doing so? =( i don't know what can i do at the moment right now. i just wish you to know that i'm still loving you. i'm a sucks boyfriend, doesnt know how to make girls happy. doesnt know how to maintain the relantion between us. only her. She is maintaining the relantion. i know =( but i'm seriously hurted her deeply this time.

Everytime i wrong, and i'll simply said a sorry and act like nothing happen before. i'm so selfish. i never care her feelings at all.